January 1st, 2015
|10:54 am - New Year |
2014 was a particularly trying year.
January saw me signed off on medical leave due to the previous Fall's rapid and steady increase in dibilitating migraines. The repeated absences from work combined with the medical uncertainty made is prudent to take time off until things could be sorted out. The long awaited neurology appointment resulted in starting both a vitamin regime of B2, Magnesium Citrate, Omega and Vit D. as well as a prescribed preventative medication. By mid February I was actively suicidal in ways I have never before experienced. With a lot of 24/7 support from my friends I was able to avoid hospitilazation and get the offender out of my blood stream.
The med chaos in my brain subsequently destroyed the previous balance of my existing bipolar medication. All hell broke loose.
It was a long long wait to see a psychiatrist to get a reboot for my brain. In May, I started on new meds, continuing to be off work due to the previous instability. We continue to tweak meds even now, but there's been a solid respite from the migraines (down to about 1 every 3 months instead of every 3 days).
Work - cut me off financially in March (with no notice) this was appealed through the Union and I recieved a settlement. I was approved for LongTerm Disability through my employer in July.
The summertime saw me prepping my condo for sale as I anticipate more financial challenges as I continue to assess the likelihood of being able to return to my job given the ongoing stress it creates in my emotionally and cognitivally.
With the unit sold in July, I prepared to move for Sept 1st. Given the chaos of my world, my still manic/unbalanced brain, I am now unhappy with the choice of apartment, but I remain aware that I made the best decision I could from the space I was in at the time.
I took on a play partner to meet some needs in June, and that relationship continues to keep some other potentially extreme behaviours under control.
My brother was in a severe car accident in mid-August and died on the roadside. It has shaken the family and he leaves behind 2 new grandbabies. I moved September 1st. My father was in a severe motorbike accident in mid September and died.
My friends, my family of choice stepped in immediately. There were cats to take care of and a me to get travelled around Ontario to deal with everything from attending services to cleaning out a house. I truly saw the blessings in my world as I walked through the grief and terror and shock of losing family so close together. My father and I had just been rebuilding our rocky relationship slowly and that's a journey of grief that I'm sure I will be travelling for a while.
On the other side of life - I took more time for me this year...going South on a cruise in late April, then going to Cozumel for a week after my dad passed. More recently I was fortunate to be given the opportunity to travel to St. Thomas in early December. During my weeks away, the ex was supportive and encouraging of my need for self-care and my friends - once again - stepped in for pet duty and furniture assembly!!
It's been a rocky year that I'm pleased to see the last of.
This year will bring more attention to my vivofit... assessing the desire to renew some and acquire more acquaintance type relationships....clearning out and tackling some ACOA issues (likely a meeting or two)... and continuing on working with my primary care providers around my physical and mental well being. I hope to spend some time examinig career options and determining where I'm supposed to be next.
I plan to continue to travel south (the light and ocean are good for me)
And I plan to journal once daily. (we'll see how long that lasts)
Welcome back world, welcome New Year.
Current Mood: Faithful
February 11th, 2012
|09:03 am - Random day |
Is not sure how the day is going to shape up yet.
I have to pick up a parcel from the post office that I apparently paid to expedite somehow!!
Have to return the (damn near) 200$ blender that got purchased last Saturday to Sears and hope they give me new one!
Then Ikea is on the list - I have a waterproof mattress liner to exchange, then it's off to Hamilton for a bellydance performance.
I may or may not have a dinner date for that. The original appears to have flaked off, so I"ve invited another new friend to join me. I've reserved 2 tickets so....
Meanwhile, in other TO DO things, there is laundry, vacume, swim, and I brought home a plethora of WORK to do.
It's shaping up to be an expensive month already, and I just found out Madonna tickets go on sale on Monday!!! I'd love to see her live, and am thinking that I could take Katina!
Current Mood: awake
November 17th, 2011
|10:31 am - When Ancient Hiistory strikes|
It's been a while.
And the kybooard fightisnot woth it..argggg
September 20th, 2011
|09:26 pm - is still|
alive out here.
Pondering the need to start journalling again...does thinking about it get me one step closer to doing it?
*hugs* to all
July 16th, 2011
|07:03 am - Want to Borrow|
A decent sleeping bag.
I simply can't justify buying one. Hoping for something that can handle a decent temperature drop.
If you are willing to lend for 2 weeks, please let me know!
Current Mood: anxious
April 10th, 2011
|01:23 pm - Actual Productivity|
So far today I have:
Called and wished my daughter a HAPPY 9TH BIRTHDAY
Ordered parts for Ty
Re-posted the kitchen table on Criags List & Kijiji
Rearranged Kat's bedroom
Found Kat's bedroom Floor
Found Living Room floor
Found my bedroom floor
vacumed said floors
treated stains on L/R floor from repetively sick cat
moved the plants that said cat keeps eating, outside
am charging the drill
emptyed and reloaded dishwasher
put away 3 baskets of clean laundry
started more laundry
played on FB
STILL TO DO
put up wall sconces in my room
vacume front entryway
clean laundry room
sort receipts for taxes
STAY ON THE PRODUCTIVITY TRAIN!!!!
March 6th, 2011
|10:29 pm - *pout*|
Obtained plague from child. Have to try to be well enough for work tomorrow - to clean up a situation from Friday.
Fell asleep in bathtub. Now to try to sleep on couch. Upright is better for sinus drainage...
All ick all the time....hate this...
Current Mood: sick
January 3rd, 2011
|12:37 pm - FINALLY|
And back to work either Tomorrow or Wed...
I don't remember!!!
December 25th, 2010
|09:12 am - Cat feeding request|
I know it's last minute - I am headed out of town today coming back by Wednesday most likely.
Any one available/willing to feed the kitties? I'll bring you keys.
Current Mood: blah
October 14th, 2010
|02:00 pm - Never Rains but it Pours|
So I wonder how few hours I can work in a month?
Seems I might be trying to find out.
Between the move last week, the cold, and rolling waves of fever, I got back to work for a 1/2 day yesterday. Came home with fever, slept for 2 hrs then spent time with Kat.
Then I fell over a gate. Stupid really, but braced and caught myself with my right arm, then as it weakened dropped to my knee. Really thought it would be my knee that would be sore this morning. But it's my shoulder and arm. Moving it hurts like and SOB and brings tears to my eyes. I can type, cause that's fine motor and hand/wrist, but raising my arm is not happening.
Went to urgent care, Dr thinks it's most likely separated ligaments in the shoulder. The X-Ray showed no breaks, or cracks, and I have an ultrasound scheduled for Monday @ 10:00am.
Why does this interfere with work? I can't drive to get there!! I emailed my boss, and suggested that someone deliver my computer, and I could get some recording done. Here's hoping.
Current Mood: sore